after a very early morning and several near-panic attacks on the way from home to the airport through check-in and security to my gate, i was richly rewarded by an AMAZING view: it was still overcast and barely getting light when we taxied away from the gate, but when we broke through the clouds, it was this incredible sea of pinky-orange and grey-blue with the sun just coming up. trying to take advantage of my couple of hours strapped to a seat without access to facebook, i’m now (or i was, until i started writing this post) working on the paper i need to present at my next conference in a couple of weeks. unfortunately, the combination of up at 5am + no coffee + attempt to articulately express my thoughts = me writing very silly sentences. to wit: “this sexual relationship is both sexual and forbidden.” holy extended felines, batman! long cat is long! blah!
also, my tray table sags on one side, which is both annoying when i’m trying to type, and a little terrifying as my cup of orange juice teeters on the edge between my laptop and the lap of the sleeping gentleman next to me.
spring break was lovely lovely in many ways. having z out to visit made it so that i could relax (which i would’ve done anyway) without feeling guilty about it (which i wouldn’t have been able to do). we didn’t do much that was terribly exciting: lots of cooking (french toast! sweet potato gnocchi with gouda cheese sauce! tofu spring rolls!), *lots* of eating, lots of TV watching (she’s now thoroughly hooked on castle and understands my girl-crush on beckett, hooray!), sleeping in, taking walks, shopping, cuddling (and memorably, washing) the cat… everything i needed to recharge my mental and emotional batteries before plunging into spring quarter.
i’m approaching spring quarter with a lot of anxiety. for one thing, i remember being totally burnt out about 2 weeks into spring quarter last year. and i really can’t afford to be anything but Totally On Top Of My Shit for the next 10 weeks. in addition to the obvious pressure of MA exams (fridays of week 6 and 7), there’s conference 1 (today and tomorrow), conference 2 (in 2 weeks, for which i am currently (not) writing my paper), visiting prospective grad students, another visiting professor candidate*, a part-part-time research assistantship, and upgrading my one class from a novel a week to a novel and a short philosophical treatise a week. it makes me feel a little ill to think about it all. it makes me want to dive under the covers and watch a whole season of dexter and eat a whole pint of jeni’s ice cream.** …taking of deep breaths.
finishing this post up sitting in tarsi’s office – we’re off in a few minutes to grab lunch in chinatown and see some cherry blossoms around dc before i head out to my conference.
*oh my goodness, if my professors don’t start acting like PROFESSIONAL ADULTS instead of pre-schoolers, i will smack them right in their faces. slash i (and all the other grad students) really want them to hire one of the candidates who has already visited, and i will be severely peeved if they do not.
**i would seriously regret the last two of those three things, one for the nightmares and the other for the digestive consequences.